8th Dec 21 – An anxiety filled morning

I returned from my run this morning feeling good – full of belief and optimism. However, it didn’t take long before anxiety and worry started to fill my mind. My brain is in overdrive, constantly trying to figure out what I want to do next – but it seems the more I try, the busier and more jumbled my mind seems to become.

So after my shower I knew I had to meditate – one of the techniques I use to relax and bring myself back to the present; it didn’t have much impact. And here I am now – mind still busy – sharing my thoughts.

Here are some of the thoughts going through my head:

“people from my old job are laughing at me – leaving my job, and still haven’t produced anything of value”

“I’m going to run out of money and have to take a job I don’t enjoy”

“I don’t know what I want to do!”

“why is it so hard to have clarity?”

I have started to feel myself drift into a place where I’m lacking self-belief and doubting my abilities; and when you lose hope, it can start to spiral into dark places.

If I lose belief in myself, then it’s more than likely that my actions will reflect that, and it’ll become a self-fulfilling cycle. But there’s no reason for me not to believe in myself! I’ve overcome challenging problems in the past:

  • defeated depression
  • graduated with a Masters in Mechanical Engineering
  • ran a 1/2 marathon
  • completed the David Goggins 4 x 4 x 48 challenge and raised over £2,000 for charity
  • delivered projects worth in excess of £4M
  • etc.

It’s time to start believing again!

If you’ve got value from this post, I’d be extremely grateful if you can donate, enabling me to continue to create this content for you.


Make a one-time donation

Make a monthly donation

Make a yearly donation

Choose an amount


Or enter a custom amount


Your contribution is appreciated.

Your contribution is appreciated.

Your contribution is appreciated.

DonateDonate monthlyDonate yearly

Never miss another post – subscribe below.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s